Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk. This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy. Shyness has nothing to…
So there I was drifting off to sleep when this song pops into my head. It’s “Will Do” by TV on the Radio. I love this song and this band. So as I drift off, I get excited about seeing them in September. And then I’m jolted awake and out of bed.
I open my laptop and check my calendar. Lo and behold, the show is on September 1. I will be in Wichita on September 1. Where TV on the Radio will not be. Nor will any other decent band. Ever.
So I feel like a dick for having to break plans. I hate breaking plans. Especially plans that I was looking forward to. And now I can’t sleep because I feel like a dick.
Not to make poor Aimee feel worse, but I have an extra ticket to this show, and this really is a fantastic song.
It’s a great band to see, if you’re into an electro, post-punk, jazzy kind of music.
Talking with a friend last night about why we hate people.
Growing up, being a nerd was not ok. We got picked on, bullied, ostracized. Kids were mean. And they didn’t stop being mean. All through high school, it didn’t end. Nobody liked you if you were a nerd. Except the other nerds, but I mean, we’re all too socially awkward to hang out with each other. Maybe in high school it got a little bit better and you “kind of got along with everyone” but did you hang out with those people outside of school? Or did you stay at home, reading Heinlein to procrastinate problems 1-4, 7, and 12 in chapter 5 of your AP Calculus book, waiting for the new episode of SG-1 to come on? Real friends were rare, and treasured, and usually pretty understanding.
All of the sudden there’s twitter. And somehow the nerds all gravitated into this tiny corner of the internet and found a community and they laughed and joked and it was awesome.
And everyone figured out that it was awesome, and suddenly everyone wants to be a nerd too. And they try and they try and they fucking get away with it and some of us can see right through you. You can’t fool everyone, and you don’t.
My friend and I see right through half our followers claiming to be experts in things they know nothing about. Clogging our stream with humble references to themselves. We see through the people forcing references into tweets to get the stars that come with a Star Wars quote. We see everything. And we see you get away with it because no one calls anyone out on bullshit. Not even us. We just see our small community become overrun with poseurs.
The people who used to make fun of us for being who we were, still are, are now making a desperate attempt to be exactly like us, and then to one up that in some pathetic effort to increase Klout and popularity.
Poseurs make up about 97% of the population. It’s on the CDC website. Look it up.
I tried out Ambien and didn’t take too well to it. Maybe sleep will be less of a hassle with Trazadone.
Had my mom look for some school records. I’ve got 4th and 6th grade report cards filled with comments about missing assignments and needing to apply myself more.
And, I’m sorry, did I even tell you all what I just finished reading? Driven to Distractionby Edward M. Hallowell and John J. Ratey. It’s definitely worth a read if you are at all interested in ADD. Or ADHD. Or whatever. The more I read the more little things from my childhood I remembered. I even sat down and threw together a timeline of pre-K through college with the things I remembered. It was pretty helpful.
It also gave me the words I needed to let the Nurse Practitioner know how the Ritalin is working out for me. “Less time lost in distraction.” Exact words. Truth. I may not notice that I’m focusing better, but I sure notice that I add up my billing and don’t wonder where 2 hours went and stress about making it up. I notice that my mood swings are… less frequent. Sort of. I definitely notice when it starts wearing off.
Unfortunately, I also notice my blood pressure going up a lot. So, that’s cool. I’m trying out the low dose for another month to see how it goes. It works pretty well, but I don’t really want to have a stroke. I mean, I’d be willing to switch meds over it.
So this must be the part I read about where the initial feelings of relief and excitement wear off and it gets frustrating again.